Today marks 101 days since I stopped gambling.
I want to reflect on what it felt like when I was deeply involved in it.
Back then, I hardly felt like I was spending money.
My mind was fixated only on winning or losing — nothing else mattered.
Looking back now, I can’t even say it was fun.
I honestly can’t explain why I kept doing it.
Since quitting, I’ve started going out for meals with friends, and I can truly feel a sense of fulfillment in my heart.
I’ve learned to focus on the feeling of joy, something I had long forgotten.
Even when I’m alone, my days feel calm and peaceful — and that simple peace feels like true happiness.
Tomorrow, I’d like to write about how my gambling addiction began and how it gradually took hold of me.
Thank you for reading.
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